There have been moments in motherhood that feel so sacred to me that I can hardly breathe. They come unexpected, and often in the ordinary moments of the day. Tears usually run down my face, but I try to hold them back, for fear that they will get in the way of the gift. Tonight was one of those moments. My 5 year old son was overtired from a tubing-water-gun-fighting-sand hole building-push cousins off the dock- lake day, and he fell asleep on the lazy boy chair downstairs. His daddy usually hauls him to bed if this happens, but he wasn't around, and I found that I could barely carry him up to bed. He is not so small anymore, and the realization that I no longer have "little ones" crossed my mind. He woke up as the comforting sound of the lake stairs creaked under our feet. Begging me to lay down with him for a minute, I was more than happy to snuggle my boy. It was then that the moment flashed.
This precious son whispered "Mama," placed his still-little hand on my cheek, put his face so close to mine that I could feel every breath, and fell asleep. What is so special about this ordinary moment? To me... everything. He was communicating YOU are my comfort, with YOU I can rest. He was saying, I love you, Mama, and I want you here....always. He gestured, there is nothing between us, we are heart to heart, face to face.
How much do I want this kind of pure relationship with each of the children God has allowed? How much more even do I want that kind of pure relationship with the God of the universe? YOU are my comfort and my rest God; I love you, and want you all the time, forever; There is nothing between us, Lord, we are heart to heart, face to face. That is truly the desire of my heart, but it doesn't just happen. I also need to spend those "ordinary moments" with God, knowing that in the ordinary, extraordinary happens. Moments so sacred I can hardly breathe.
COLOSSIANS 3:12-17 (MSG)
12-14So, chosen by God for this new life of love, dress in the wardrobe God picked out for you: compassion, kindness, humility, quiet strength, discipline. Be even-tempered, content with second place, quick to forgive an offense. Forgive as quickly and completely as the Master forgave you. And regardless of what else you put on, wear love. It's your basic, all-purpose garment. Never be without it.
15-17Let the peace of Christ keep you in tune with each other, in step with each other. None of this going off and doing your own thing. And cultivate thankfulness. Let the Word of Christ—the Message—have the run of the house. Give it plenty of room in your lives. Instruct and direct one another using good common sense. And sing, sing your hearts out to God! Let every detail in your lives—words, actions, whatever—be done in the name of the Master, Jesus, thanking God the Father every step of the way.
